Today (October 2, 2016) is the 2nd anniversary that my beloved Bailey Girl received her wings. I want to honor her my making the donation I made to Tripawds for all they have done for me and my sweet Angel Bailey.
To say I don’t look back would be a lie because I do that often and wonder why especially when she was so strong and there are so many success stories. The only thing I know is without Tripawds and the family I gained it would have been really hard to carry on. I know I did not have a choice in helping Bailey with the amputation the other choice was not even taken into consideration. But WE did this FOR HER NOT TO HER.
I know in my heart it was the right decision. Baileys journey was a very bumpy one and we had lots of hurdles to manage and we tried and she tried and always seemed to pull through. With the help of my friends on Tripawds WE managed our sleepless nights and confusion on medications etc. Today is a sad day and my my heart is broken and there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about our journey and the what ifs and her pain at the end. I failed her at the end I broke my promise at the end but I pray she knows I did everything possible that I could do. Bailey Girl had a lot of supporters on here and I gained a family that I never had. I am so grateful that we were brought together and I am blessed to have such great people in my life that understand my love for my Angel Bailey Girl. So here’s to TRIPAWDS for getting me through this and helping my Angel Bailey Girl.
Happy 2nd Anniversary in Heaven Bailey Girl I miss you so much and I will love you forever you have my heart sweet girl. Your Angel will always shine bright for you. Mama misses you and I wish I could have done more for you. I’m sorry Bailey Girl.
Happy 2nd Angelversary Bailey Girl. Tracy thank you so much for your donation. We are always here for you. <3 <3 <3. I know that these Angelversaries hurt. Bailey knows that you tried to help and never hurt her. We can look back and I know it is hard to look back and think did I do the right thing and if I had to do it over again I wouldn't do this or that. We do the best we can do at the time as did you.
Thinking of you on this Angelversary
Michelle & Angel Sassy
Oh Tracy, have some bittersweet tears flowing over here! Some tears of joy as we celebrate such a magnificent Soul who brought us all so much happiness. Her loving and courageous and gentle nature is embedded in our hearts FOREVER! We celebrate a life that touched us all!
And yes, we grieve with you and for you. We ALL know far too well the worthless second guessing and focusing on things that we cannot change.
I can only offer this…and I believe it. When the Soul’s earthly purpose, it’s earthly mission, is complete, it will exit. We, as humans, think WE are the ones in controlmof that. No, Bailey was in “control” of her transition. Bailey would have crossed over without your “intervention” had she felt her mission was complete. She had lessons to teach, and love to give and receive for just a bit longer. The timing of the gift of release you gave her was exactly as SHE wanted it!
I cannot tell you how many times Bailey’s BEAUTIFUL banner pops up and I smile everytime because she was soooo loved and knew it!!! Oh yeah, she knew it alright and knew how to get you to spoil her non-stop!! 🙂
Thiss such a beautiful tribute and a life affirming way to honor this lovely Soul. THANK YOU!!! And thanks for checking in! I know from Michelle you are on facebooger and I keep tabs on you and your pack that way. You are in my thoughts always!
Sending you love and “tight hugs” always!!
Sally and Alumni Happy Hannah and Merry Myrtle and Frankie too!
Tracy,
I am new here (August 2016) and we’ve not met but I have seen pictures of your Bailey on the banner of this site numerous times and thought what a beauty she is. The fact that you were and are here tells me that you DID NOT fail her and you DID NOT break your promise and you did everything you could for her. Don’t beat yourself up about what happened – I’m sure she wouldn’t want you to and didn’t/doesn’t believe that. None of this is perfect. Be kind to yourself. You did your best and that is all any of us can do.
Wanda
Sally and Michelle
Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. I sit here and cry because I really miss my Tripawd Family. I know you both know how bad it hurts and many times we feel like our heart is going to shatter. You both have been my rock and continue to be. It’s really hard for me to sign on I visit from time to time but it makes me cry I just want her here (I know you both know) I want to erase it all and start over. I know I try to move on and I do have a very large pack right now my Bella who was my very first Great Dane is almost 12! I really try to love like I use to but I can’t let anyone into my heart like Bailey Girl. I know that probably sounds crazy but maybe I’m protecting myself and I do question why. Gracie was sent to me she knows when I hurt and she touches me all the time she definitely was meant to be here. I know Bailey Girl is running pain free I just really have a hard time with the what ifs, I pray it gets better with time because it can paralyze me I just sit and do nothing. I really can’t express enough gratitude to everyone on here Sally and Michelle thank you for picking me up again. I love you both and I really would love to meet someday. (Yes I’m a foster failure Sally I have 4 Danes now! Bowie will be a year on 1/22/17 and my oh my is he a handful and cries when I leave even with someone home. What did I do…) Anyway this has helped to try to tell you how I really feel. With love and tight hugs, Tracy and my Angel Bailey Girl!